there are things that i expect from you, things that i don't even expect myself to be able to do. i'm too easily swayed, too superficial. it's disappointing to know, it's disappointing to admit... but i am.

i don't have much faith in relationships. but it's not you, it's me. i don't have faith in myself. really though, i really want this to last. i'll try my best. i'll do my part to make this work. but like you, i don't have any guarantees.

what is this that i'm feeling? pessimistic, heartbroken, hopeless.